Emo


Somehow after reading some blogs that i chanced upon, i have this adrenaline rush to blog more. Feeling emo i guess?



Reasons? i am not sure. Perhaps i am feeling too bored or bothered by the thought of the presentation coming up tommorrow which makes me start to think back about some past incidents. Weird isn't it? and when i thought of those which i was utterly disappointed, i hoped for a second chance.




I am starting to get sick at things around me now, everything seems so disorganised and difficult to handle. It all came too sudden, an impact too big for me to take it. How good it will be if i can just turn back the time and rearrange the events in my own will. Sadly to say, that will not ever happen. For all the mistakes that i have done, now it could only be a stepping stone to a new learning experience. But somehow i kept repeating the same old mistakes.





On the other hand, maybe i should try to view things in a more optimistic angle.



Maybe by dumping so much assignments to me all at one time, it is a wake-up call for me to be more organised, or perhaps knowing that my presentation is tommorrow, there is still time for me to prepare my final speech today. Nevertheless, i should realise the fact that i am now living in a nation so safe from disasters, different from those suffering in Indonesia now, and yet i feel life has no meaning at all. Damn, this should not be the way i feel.




If only, if only, if only. This could just be my answer for the moment.